彻彻底底的输了。。。
半夜三点钟的心得。
输在我傻得可以,笨得可以去相信这些。输在我够天真,够白痴得以为全天下的人都是好人。输在我还是个小孩不够成熟。
我忘了我活在这个现实的社会里而这现实的社会就是那么的冷酷无情。
关心的话语真的来自你的心底吗?我好害怕。虽然我告诉自己这只不过是一场游戏。或许我真的玩不起也输不起。因为我偷偷的希望这一切都是真的。偷偷的希望所有的坏事只不过是一场恶梦,一觉醒来会没事。
但是我忘了我活在这残酷的现实里。人心是险恶的。大家都带着面具,呈现着世界所想看到的自己。人生只不过是个舞台,大家扮演者不一样的角色。是真是假?老实说我忘了要怎么分清楚。教教我好吗?
谎言?实话?到底谁说的才是真的?我实在搞不懂。
我本来就不应该感情用事,本来就不应该陷进去。。。所以才会像现在这样。但又不完全是这个。。。
我真的好累。我不知道我能装自己没听见没看见多久?我能撑多久?
我的心好疼。希望你能从背后紧紧地抱着我,五分钟也好。只要不要像那天一样没抱好就放手。
好想痛痛快快的在你怀里痛哭一场。但是我忘了我是一个人。
一个人也没什么不好 和 以前一样。对不起我太傻了,不应该笨得以为自己再也不会是一个人了。
因为现在什么是真什么是假,什么人该信什么人不该信。。。我实在不知道答案。
-我可以的。明天又是新的一天。。。
Sorry if you felt I don’t care enough, what am I suppose to do? I only have one me… 心有余力不足。。。
-筋疲力尽
I wish the rain don’t stop… it has been going on for the whole night from 6pm yesterday.
October 31, 2009
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of the day. Time flies. Going to be 11pm soon.
Shucks!
Hate being emotional.
I don’t know why am I throwing tantrums.
argh!
I need something to make me happy! Please distract me.
I don’t know why do I feel all these! It is just a stupid dumb job!
rahhs!
Being part of the team? I feel totally left out. I don’t know. [...]
October 30, 2009
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Ha! yepps! Finally Friday is here again! I don’t know if it is a good thing or badd thing. It means the week is coming to an end soon! It means another week is going to begin again! It means examinations is coming! ohh!
I know I am very contradicting. I wish time can pass faster [...]
October 30, 2009
Categories: Personal, family, friends, randomness, rants, school, work, 有感而发 . . Author: Jia . Comments: Leave a Comment