I don’t know what have I done or why are you so affected by me… 我们是朋友吗？朋友之间不该互相坦诚吗？还是因为这是个现实的世界而在你的词典里，朋友其实不存在。存在着的是利益的关系。。。那我是谁？那你为什么又要如此的难过？那你为什么要说那些话？还是说所有的一切只不过是一场戏？
我想我真的是个小孩。不懂的人情世故，不懂的所谓的交际。。。我的词典很有限，不是敌就是友，在不然就只是acquaintances…这样的我或许真的不懂的待人处世之道。
这样的一个残局，到底还剩下什么？到底还有什么是值得我去争取的？
我心里有好多好多的问号。。。
一觉醒来才发现，这只不过是个现实的世界不是一场恶梦。。。
I hate the construction that is going on at my neighbourhood! It is driving me crazy! argh! So annoying! Annoying! I can’t sleep, I can’t study with the noise! sighs! It is just right outside my window!
I wish I know what went wrong along the way, I wish I know what I can do to salvage the situation… Perhaps it is all too late. Change is the only constant thing in life. What has changed has changed, it will not be the same ever again.
There are increasing number of spies… This is pure nonsense! Why are we affected? Aren’t we just part-timers? However, I really gotta say I feel super duper cheated by… Upon the realization, I feel like the relationship we had is just so superficial.
Now I am afraid. 请你们这些人不要对我那么好。。。这个游戏我真的玩不起。Tell me who can I trust and talk to? Work is going to be soo boring all over again. Not as if it is any better now…
I need to learn how to manage all these better.
I fell asleep while studying last night. Tired. I don’t know why but I feel so exhausted. I hate it whenever I fall asleep because it simply just means more work the next day. Perhaps I should study at my void deck at night so that there will be no beds, no kitchen to distract me…
I wish time will pass a little slower just a little slower. So that I can have more time. So that I can do more things. So that happy times can stay for a little longer…
I think I wish for too many things already it is not even my birthday…
-只有你，only You…
November 9, 2009
Categories: randomness . . Author: Jia . Comments: Leave a Comment
